Hello my name is …….. well I suppose my name is irrelevant. This is my blog on trying to lose weight, get pregnant for a second time and just live life. At the moment I am not living life. My days consist of me taking my young one to kindergarten,picking him up and going to my part-time job three times a week . I have absolutely no social life (all my own doing)  The reason is I weigh nearly 270lbs and just cant face the world like this. I hate been this weight but just cant get the drive to lose it. I am good maybe for one week and then ruin it totally again. I start diets daily and then end up saying by the evening I’ll start again tomorrow. It has been 4 years and I still haven’t started so here goes I am going to do this now once and for all and become the happy me, the me that wants to socialise, the me who doesn’t have to spend 10 hours trying to find something to wear because I hate myself in everything, the me that can go shopping without nearly crying in the changing room. The me that can be healthy, the me that can feel sexy and beautiful again. The me that can just be me.

I hope I can also help and motivate people along the way